Share something you struggle with.
…bed time monster. Since one of the major things I struggle with has a blog about it already, I’m going to talk about one my other struggles, which may or may not have an indirect correlation with the one from the other blog (still with me? If not, I recommend reading this one too).
If you know me well or have known me for quite a while, you’ll know that I’m the real deal when it comes to being a night owl. I often stay up way past my bedtime, up to a point where it was suggested I move to America, to be on the right timezone again. It’s not that I have trouble falling asleep, my struggle lies in the actual going to bed. Once in bed, I fall asleep easily (not always instantly, but easily none the less), provided the room is dark. I’m very light sensitive and a street light through thin curtains can keep me awake. But since that is not the case in my bedroom, it’s more a combination of other factors.
Losing track of time on the internet, not finding the energy to get off the comfy couch and get ready for bed, enjoying the peace and quiet that usually only night time provides, dreading the moment I turn off the distractions and my head filling with the thoughts it hasn’t been able to bring to my attention during the day, … These are just a few of the reasons I can think of consciously. I’m sure there’s a whole slew of subconscious ones that contribute too, but I think simple genetics play as well. I’ve always been an evening dweller, never much of a morning person (except for a short period of time when I was about 10). It often happens that I’ll be exhausted after a long day of work, and decide to just relax a bit before going to bed and by the time I go to bed, I’m wide awake again, because my brain and body just naturally come alive after 9pm.
I’ve tried to tackle it somewhat, by setting a task on my computer to shut down automatically by 11pm on days that I have to work the next day, but then I usually still manage to dally around the house and linger in the bathroom, and it will often be past midnight before I make it to bed. I’ve tried building in a routine before bed, like they teach kids, but so far it hasn’t worked yet. I’m lucky I normally don’t start till 9:30 am at work, which gives me some reprieve in the morning. I think my ideal schedule would be to go to bed by 1am and get up around 10 am.
It was easier when I was in a relationship with a morning person, then the incentive to go to bed earlier was bigger, but since I’ve been single a while yet, it’s not a habit that stuck. I’ll have to learn how to do it by myself or find a new person that will take me to bed earlier, hehehe.